What is wrong with me?

Lately I have been feeling I can’t be bothered with anything. I want to stay off school and stay in bed all day. I feel I have nothing to look forward to in my life; I wake up and think what is the point? I can’t be bothered to even take care of my self. I don’t care about anything I think what is the point in me even being here, I have no friends to talk to about this because I have no friends that are girls all of them are boys and I don’t want to speak to them about this. I can’t concentrate in class I am always thinking abut how I could have a better life somewhere else and getting away. I cry myself to sleep nearly every night and struggle to sleep. I sometimes cry when I come home from school at nothing. The only thing I look forward to in my life is in two years time I will leave school and start college and have new friends, but I don’t want to go through the rest of my high school life thinking this. Normally I would like to go out after school with my friends, but now I can not be bothered. All I want to do is to stay in wasting my life watching TV and going on the internet, it seems to be the only thing that I want to do, also I can not stop eating even though I am underweight. I hate the way my body looks I am so skinny, bony and pale, I look so unhealthy but I can not stop eating I am hungry all the time. I wish I had a reason at why I cry but I don’t so I just seems sad. I also wish I could be bothered to do things instead of waking up and feeling the way I d0. I haven’t always been like this, there was some point in my life when I was happy, do more then just sitting in all week, I wish I could go back to this but I just can’t. I just keep thinking why am I here if I am going to be so unhappy, I feel so vunarble to everyhing, everytime I walk out of my house I feel something bad will happen to me that day I think I will fall out with someone or something. I always feel left out and get invited to nothing. I feel nothing can motivate me nothing anyone says will make me feel better. What is wrong with me?

hey..i just read your text..at some point i thought this cant be real is it me writting it?...i feel exactly like you do..im depressed all day i feel like i hate everyone i feel so alone..im desperately searching for a person who can understand me but no one does..i think the only thing that would help me and save me from this pain is dying but still im scared to do it..well do you have msn.?i would like to talk to you cuz i think i finally found a person that i can talk to and who will understand me..well my msn is..lovehate15@hotmail.com..if you want..add me..

Im 24 and have felt the same all my life ... iv been to doctors he dismissed it as a faze ... at 19! drifting in and out of stages of depression, been through experiances such as ... father died at 15, a whole secret life came out 3 half brothers id never me or herd of (evryone else did!), best mate died in a crash aged 18, girlfriend who supported me through everything ... shit on me after over 4 years 2 gether aged 21 ... abused substances from the age of 16 .. valium, alcohol, exstacy, amphetamine, LSD, Ketamine, coccaine ... and a few others id rather not disclose ... but even now ... 24, nothings changed... i still feel exactly the same as i did when i was 14 ... empty, hollow, pointless ... but other times i go through high times ... some of the stuff iv done in life is disgusting ... fighting, stealin, robbing, drinking, taking drugs ... and in my head i was never evn like that ... just when im hyper, i do crazy stuff ... Doctors always put my behaviour down to a "faze" but i feel like i have no control some times ... im going to doctors in the morning ... hopefully il get some answers