sorry only read afew comments but ive been with my bf 10 years we have 3 children together, i found out recently that he cheated on me 3 years ago i also found out through messages i'd seen, he denyyed it at first but later admitted after i trashed the house, he swaers hes told me the truth about wot happened but questions keep going through my mind like was it more then once and other similar questions i really dont know if i should believe him it hurts so much it feels like my whole world is falling apart ive not been eating properly ive been stressing at the kids alot even tho i know its not their fault, i do still love my fella but i just need to know from him that it wont happen again and theres just no way of him proving that to me, i want to forgive him but i cant forget i just want this pain and heartache to go ive even felt suicidel cause i cnt take it no more as any1 else felt this way and wot did u do?