Hi, I am 29years old guy from major city in India. I am a casual attitude guy, friends feel I have a good sense of humour. I enjoy making others laugh. I extract wit even in the most intense matter. But, now I am very depressed. I don't know how do I handle my relationship with my family. I am feeling too weak and let down to face it any more. We are a family of 6, Mom, Dad, my three lovely sisters and me, being the eldest son. I love my family more than anything.
But I am not certain why they always feel I am wrong. Quarrels arise due to small things. E.g. They do not keep me informed of anything happening in the family. I want to be part of my family in happy and in the unhappy times. I am ignored, I can take being abused, shouted or ill-treated, but I cannot bear being ignored. I get frustrated, angry and finally break-up and I voice out. They feel I am the reason for the tension at home. I am truthful and honest in anything I am engaged with, but this is very disturbing and hurting me mentally and emotionally.
I feel maybe it is because I am not stable in my jobs. I have been very good in my studies, I have done my graduation with great difficulty. I did all menial jobs and supported my family and my education. And this holds great value for me. But in my working career of 12years I have changed 23 jobs. The only longest being one in a call-centre for 18months. My sister, in her work-span of 10years has changed only two companies and is in a good designation earning a very lucrative salary. Not only her, most of the guys of my age are all in some respectable position.
I have no qualms for not being the same as them. I am content for whateverI am today, coz one thing I understand whatever we are or happens to us the only person responsible for that is none other than ourself, so do I take the blame or responsibility as the society addresses it. My only concern is my family, I love them a lot. Can't they ever understand how much I need them. I don't want to lose my patience any more and cause any disturbance. I don't know what to do. I want peace.