I am 23 years old. I have been living with abnormal fears my whole life. I developed insomnia at a young age due to a paralyzing fear of death. I am afraid to be alone, I am afraid to be in a social gathering, or any social event. I don't leave my house unless I HAVE to. I have crippling panic attacks on a daily basis. I cry and shake and go numb. I have become a very regular drug user to help "cope" with my lack of comfort and happiness. I will take really anything someone will give me or I can find. I don't have insurance, money, a job, or family to help me. I have no support except myself and my boyfriend who can't relate or understand anything I feel or say.
I cannot complete the simplest tasks without feeling as though something is out to get me I guess you could say. I don't know what to do, but I am about to become homeless because I have been attempting to comvince myself to go get a job, I really want to... I just can't. If I don't get help soon I am really going to lose everything. I would appreciate any advice you can give me to help aid me in getting past this unexplained anxiety and fear I have constantly enslaving me. I don't know what it feels like to be comfortable in my own skin. I am so desperate for help!!! (I do not have insurance, or finanial help at all... or a car to get myself around. I am limited when it comes to seaking professional help...)
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