Re: im in love with a married man

I'm at least glad i can write about everything here and noone judges me. Tonight i did not have to do anything to make him mad. He came over and told me that i should move on because he has no time for me. He will be working alot cause he needs the money. I told him i was leaving town to stay with my daughter for a week. and he just blew up. He said i told you to move on. I'm not going to have a phone for you to call me. I'm getting it shut off. Now we have a 5 yr old daughter and i don't know what he is thinking on that part she can not disapear for him. We have been having fights over the little time he spends with us. I think i have put to much pressure on him and now he wants nothing to do with me. Or he is trying to work things out with his wife. I was really hurt and started to cry. I really can't take the rejection that was coming out of his mouth. He sounded like he was trying to hurt me. In the last 2 weeks he has been coming over drunk. He tells me he's crazy over me and that he loves me. But then out of the blue he wants to end it. I don't understand what i did that was so wrong. I know i cannot make him spend time with me. I don't want to make him. I know i love this man unconditionally. I have always waited on him. But i have grown tired of it. I want more and i know i can't have it, so i will have to figure out how to go on without him. Please if anyone can help Email me at Jadasmom69@aol.com I'm really hurting here.