Hello, I'm julia I'm in the same boat as you. Only i have a child by my married man. She is 5 yrs old. She was not planned but she is here. My married man adores her. I have been his mistress for 10 yrs. I didnot plan it, It just was not told to me that he was married until after we was together 2 yrs. I go threw a lot with him. I know i should move on but i can't figure out how without hurting myself. The best part of my life was spent with this man. And i have a fear of starting over. I'm 45 years old he is 53 yrs old. If i had advise to give someone i would say never be with a married guy unless you like to hurt yourself. I have been totally faithful to this man. I feel bad that he has a wife and real guilty. But i just feel i would crawl under a rock without him. I know he loves me, but i will always come second to his family. His children our grown up. I think certain type woman get involved with a married person i just don't know why. I plan on stop seeing this man if i can figure out how to move on with my life without destroying myself mentally in the process. I have no family here. My friends our his friends. My family is his family. I know nobody else. I hope maybe to find a pen pal to talk to. Julia
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03 Jun 2007 07:42
